Buang masa

Hari ni, abg buang masa buat banner site ni. Guna 'Seashore', Gimp-based picture editing software. Boring nya...
My simulation is still taking a long time to run. I don't know what's wrong. The ODE solution seems too close to singularity. Eventhough my matrix is full rank. Eventually I force to stop the program when the error tolerance is too small.

Why? why? why?It is because;

1. the ODE is 'stiff' type
2. my matrix isn't actually full rank, but due to processor limit, it says it is full rank. ??
2. the 'kappa' term after I tie it up to dhdq term, results in zero matrix. is it logic? (how can I get the x,y,phi position if it is not driven by the input tau.)

Sakit perut

Today, my darling has stomach ache. She said, probably it was from the food she bought yesterday. But I simply suspect, it was not only because of the dreaded food. The feeling of separation especially after 3 years staying at home with Ammaar just makes thing up to the worst. Plus, leaving Nawfal at that very tender age might make you feel guilty.
Be strong Da!
It's natural for you to have that feeling. Tanya la mana mana mak pun yang terpaksa pergi kerja.
The important thing is, the love between you and budak budak won't reduce. What you can do now, is to spend quality time with them.
Satu lagi, kalau pegi farmasi, beli 'milk of magnesia' for sakit perut. Always keep one bottle at home.

Nawfal Naim Shahrul Naim

First time tengok anak Babah yang kedua after sebulan lebih tak jumpa. Perasaan gembira bercampur sayu. Anak babah yang nih dah besar. Sekejap jer dia membesar. Tu la betul cakap si Daisy, enjoy this time, they will outgrow you in a matter of 'seconds'. Babah rasa rugi, sebab tak tengok Nawfal membesar depan mata, but Babah percaya, the sacrifice will be paid off.

Doa Babah, agar Nawfal membesar menjadi anak yang sihat, soleh dan cemerlang.

Ni la Nawfal Naim : umur 4.5 bulan : berat 7.4kilo

Nawfal sama Che Tee

Hari pertama isteriku bekerja

Isteriku bangun awal, seawal 5 pagi. Dapat abang rasakan bagaimana risau perasaan Da. Nak meninggal Ammaar dan Nawfal bersama Mak Tok. Nawfal semakin berat. 7.4 kilo menurut Che' Ti. Kalau babah angkat pun, paling lama setengah jam. Mesti sudah sakit pinggang. Inikan pulak Mak Tok. Ammaar pulak, tak pernah berjauh dengan mamanya. So far, training yang dibagi tak jalan. Mungkin tak cukup.
Tapi abang yakin, they will behave well. Kita cuma perlu percaya kat diorang. Especially Ammaar.
Tapi Da, yang abang lebih risaukan. Mesti asyik teringat kat anak masa kerja nanti. Da tak pernah berpisah dengan anak-anak. Abang harap Da boleh fokus kerja.
InsyaAllah, time will settle down everything. Harap-harap, bibik yang dijanji dapat datang sebelum bulan puasa ni supaya segala kerisauan dan beban dapat dikurangkan.